This is more of tossing it out there as God has asked me to, but I really am not looking. My soulmate has been found, but she has taken the route of ignoring both God and me, so alone I will be. At the moment if things do not change between us by October 31, 2023 I will go full hermit and wipe all traces of myself from social media, and all of my books from platforms--no one wants to buy them anyway. I will probably stop talking to God as well as it has gotten me nowhere in 53 years of praying. I will stay in my yard, only go out to work and get supplies. I have tired of dealing with people who say they love me only for their actions to reveal truths their words don't share--actions speak louder than words. I won't put myself through this again, I can't take the pain and anguish it puts my spirit through.
So what are the qualities I would seak?
Red or blonde hair
Someone who understands sarcasm
Smart
Independant but respects my wishes
Does not make unilateral decisions that affect my life
Respects that when a desicion is made between us it is honored
Someone who honors my commitment to them
Someone who respects me
Someone who honors and respects my boundries
Follows through with what they say they will do for me
Someone who like me puts our relationship before everything else in their life
Someone who is proud to be with me and willingly shares that with everyone
If you know who my someone is then you know how many of these are met and how easy it would have been to meet the rest.
So unless there is a change on Novemeber 1st I will wipe everything. Yes it is sad but not as sad as seeing them move on without me. Seeing them post pics when I should be waking beside them. Not as hard as trying to get them to talk and getting nothing but silence as a response. It has not been chosen lightly and hopefully I will eventually forget what was and what might of been.
Maura Out
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